Hmm.. now that i think of it, i feel that plasters are very pitiful. People use them when they need it and after that... Throw them away and forget about them. I felt the same way too... when my friend told me this, " They treat you like plaster ma" Haiz... Though i truely agreed... any normal person would feel sad... That day... after playing maple with 2 of my friends... I was forced to go out with my family. Then... My sister was very angry as my father did not tell us that we had events going on and she had already planned what she wanted to do. Thus, she rebutted my father on the car... then my father asked us to go home... T.T Perfect start of the stupid day... Then reached home... played maple again... with the same 2 friends.. HAHA! That cheered me up a little then i went to watch my favourite anime. Then after that... Went to my uncle's house.. he was probably in a bad mood and kept shooting my father with hurtful stuff like.. "If you do not know how to be a boss then don't be!" and many stuff and even though i was angry at my father fo his previous act, as his son, i felt a bit sorry for him and angry at my uncle... My father just wanted to rest for a day and had forgotten to tell the other workers that he would not be going to work and ended up like that... Haiz... So... That was the second thing.. After listening to so much they had said, i was irritated and went to some unknown void deck, sitting down and looking at the clouds... Then smsed some friends whom some replied quickly and some like snials... XD Then talked to my sister about my famous topic "Friends" Then she was talking about how she was jealous that her best friend sometimes got better marks than her and how her friend was jealous of her too. She then cleared up with her best friend the day before... And now they are best friends like they never were. I started to talk to a friend about my stuff... and he told me about plasters. how i was like them. He understood me? Yupp... That was what i thought or at least, he was the only one that had talked to me about it. Erm... maybe another friend did too. They all said pratically the same thing but one using plasters and other using me as an object. They said that i was like something that people use when they need and push aside or thrown away when they do not need me. I truely felt that yesterday when we talked through sms. They said that i was too weak in terms that i get too involved in things that do not even concern me. That was brought up when my form teacher told me in the one to one interview. I thought that she was just being a mean person atr first but now... somehow i could understand what she had said earlier. When they are alone... they talk to me, do projects with me... but when they already have friends, why bother about me? T.T Thanks lol the two whom talked to me XD Now maybe i would try not to get too involved... start loving myself before loving others... Maybe? Nah.... I am not that kind of person... Haha. Just carry on with life and hope like my friend said that bad things would always come to an end, like good things. Of course, bad things often comes to and end at a slower rate but until it ends, i shall help anything or anyone i can. At least they can he happy when i help them and although i might not be cared... at least only one our of a hundred would be sad.... me......

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